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Feb 15 2026

1952 – Ikiru (To Live)

1952 – Ikiru

It’s a japanese drama film by the master Akira Kurosawa (only my 2nd after Seven Samurai) from a screenplay by Shinobu Hashimoto and Hideo Oguni. It is said to be inspired by Leo Tolstoy’s 1886 novella “The Death of Ivan Ilyich“. It mainly stars Takashi Shimura as a terminally ill bureaucrat as he examines how his life has been going. I rented it from filmingo for 6 Eur.

It’s nothing new, that there is plenty of nostalgia on social media right now. The newest trend in 2026 is to share your photos from 2016, to romanticize its aesthetic, to reminisce of a time before the pandemic where there was less polarization, less constant crisis. I, on the other hand, went on an even deeper rabbit hole to a nostalgia core corner that says that The Matrix was right, actually: 1999 was peak humanity! And so I stumbled across Baz Luhrman’s Sunscreen video. Huh, I hadn’t seen that since almost 25 years, way before YouTube, probably when visiting New York city after having moved to Northern California, faithfully as the video had said. By the time the video was halfway done, I was a weeping mess. Even though there were few regrets, most of the advice is generic and I had tried to follow a lot to some degree after having received it in a chainmail e-mail back in 1997, it hits differently when looking back. And if this examination of ones life right in the middle of it at 47 hits so hard, would it be even be more of a gut punch were I older or my deathbed?

Here the movie Ikiru (roughly translated as “to live” or “living”) comes in. The movie starts on the protagonist Kanji being a zombie bureaucrat – a coworker even gave him the nickname “the mummy”. All the time working, at one time full of ideals and with great hopes for a family until the great ideas were beaten and hollowed out of him and the relationship with his son is superficial at best. These themes are Universal, of course, just think of Cat Stevens’ Cat’s in the Cradle or Arthur Miller’s Death of a Salesman. And then Kanji gets the stomach cancer diagnosis (not officially, he has to tragicomically infer it and the fact that he has less than a year to live).

I love that the movie at first goes all hedonistic. He goes on a drinking spree, gambles at pachinko parlors, dances, stays out all night, first with a poet, then with a disillusioned younger female co-worker. Similar to the song Live Like You Were Dying by Tim McGraw at first he tries to make it so that his life was worth living. But with respect to the movie, The Bucket List, you can’t simply selfishly cross of items on a list to make your life mean something. In the second half is where the movie really cooks and goes beyond the themes in the first and it does it in a wonderful flashback manner. The kind you wish for at your funeral, the realization that you were a good person, when you touched even strangers profoundly. And all with a simple contentment that is often inherent in Japanese life.

It’s quite a feat that the movie managed to touch me. I was on quite a cynical mood the whole day yesterday and seeing the new release of Wuthering Heights just left me cold and eye-rolling (like this is supposed to be steamy?). Well done graphically, but it just missed the emotional mark on me. So this quiet contemplation, very simple even, could have elicited the same reaction, it is a 74 year-old movie, after all.

But in its simple honesty it hit the mark, I googled the emotional centerpiece song Kanji keeps on requesting and singing and translated its lyrics:

“Gondola no Uta” (The Gondola Song)

Life is brief. Fall in love, maidens. Before the crimson bloom fades from your lips, Before the tides of passion cool within you, For those of you who know no tomorrow.

Life is brief. Fall in love, maidens. Before his hands take up his boat, Before the flush of his cheeks fades, For those of you who will never return here.

Life is brief. Fall in love, maidens. Before the boat floats away on the waves, Before the flame in your heart flickers and dies, For those of you who have no today.

And that seems very much like the generic advice from Sunscreen that moved me so deeply when I was 18 years old. And it all came full circle and I have to agree with the world what a wonderful movie this is and that the arc it portrays is deeply moving, especially the joy he has swinging in the snow on the new playground he built.

Dec 15 2025

1948 – Bicycle Thieves

1948 – Bicycle Thieves – (Ladri di biciclette)

It’s an Italian neorealist drama film directed by Vittorio De Sica. It stars totally unknown actors Lamberto Maggiorani as the father (Antonio) and Enzo Staiola as the son (Bruno), who are looking for a stolen bike in poverty stricken post-WWII Italy. I saw it on YouTube, thanks to this amazing list I found on there. I chose it because it was at one time (1952) rated number 1 in Sight an Sound’s Greatest Movie of all time.

As a kid, I loved my bike. Rode it up and down our little neighborhood in the afternoons, down dirt paths, trying to get amazing jumps in. On the weekend my dad would take me to the BMX park and I would dive into the bowl with joy and try (and fail) some jumps on the half pipe. I even dreamt of my bike, that I could fly over the big cliff near our house, that I would win some bike race. I wasn’t even super good at it; I just loved the bike. Not for nothing, at one point I could recite you the lines of Pee-wee’s Big Adventure, by heart. Poor Peewee’s beautiful red bike (mine was red, too) gets stolen and he has to track it down all over America, what’s not to like?

I was also captivated by the two staples of Italian cinema when I was young: Cinema Paradiso and Life is Beautiful. Both are centered around the relationship between a boy and his father figure and both boys are so cute to look at. The pictures I had seen of Bruno in this movie seemed enough to convince me to watch this movie.

But then… I kinda hated this movie. First of all, the bleakness – yes, of course, post war Italy is bleak. People are fighting for survival, there aren’t any jobs around. But that’s just it, everybody is miserable, everybody is suffering, of course some people are going to resort to stealing. I could just simply no warm up to the main character. So self righteous, as if he deserved special treatment, as if he is the only one to be believed by the police. He gets all indignant and impatient when his wife goes to see a fortune-teller and nags at her, but then he goes to see her himself and whines that his wife nags at him. But the worst is his treatment of his son, he constantly yells at him when all he’s trying to do is to help his father. Poor kid falls and gets scraped in the rain, gets beaten by his old man and in the end is berated for having such a dead beat dad.

And the movie drags, too. It gets boring after a while to go from street to street of Antonio accusing yet another person of stealing his damn bike. There are some scenes, which are cute, for example Bruno eating his mozzarella sandwich (yum!), but I had to stop the movie at several points, because I was bored. Sorry, but I will just go back to Pee-Wee and let Antonio wallow in his misery.

This is my second-to-last entry for this year and I don’t want to end my last entry on a sour note, so before I leave, I want to wish you, some happy holidays and merry Christmas! Thanks for reading the blog!